If you leave me now, you take away the biggest part of me

Yesterday was a Sunday, was down at Pet Mover's Pet Farm at Pasir Ris along with 4 of my pups. Was there to see if there were potential adopters. Unfortunately or not, I dunno, there were two families who were really keen to adopt a pup. Problem is: they wanted the same one. Fuck.... nothing ever works smoothly I see... The first family even hoped to bring the pup away that very moment.
It was precisely at that moment everything hit me. I realised just how much I love these 7 dwarves. These 3 weeks plus of midnight wailing, shitting and peeing all over the place were incomparable to that kinda loss and sour ache when I heard the words "we would like to bring it home today". I remembered going dizzy for like 2seconds, and then stared down at the little one cuddled in my arms. I wish I could keep you all here with me and Cancan. I'll miss you acting ferocious, and hobbling around my legs...
There are really so many things in life you simply can't control, even if you tried really hard. They may directly influence you, even be part of you, yet you could still be powerless to stop or change any of these. Just like the pangs and moisture I felt in my eyes as I drove all of them home that evening, sleeping quietly in the aircon car...... At least I have a few more weeks or days with them left...