I figured... I really should write something so that you get to read it tomorrow if you're online. =) And it has been a while since I wrote something so *krack krack knuckles* here goes:
Lest less discerning readers let their imagination run wild on the possibly misleading title, no, this is not some raunchy dirty tale of some appetizing affair. The main topic today is... Sports Day. O glorious Day it is. How the weather favors us, complete with hot baking sun, winds, clouds and torrential rains. Ah, a typical Singapore Day it has been.
A certain cute endearing penguin drove me to the destination and I must give her the due credits and thanks I felt. May I once again remind readers that she, happens to rank Number One on my Pooh Idol list. Thank you for the stuff you do for me darling~~ * paws affectionately*
The Sports Day for me consisted mainly of walking around *ie patrolling the grounds* and drinking water and watching a bit of the events. The terror kids in the T class were all cheery and welcoming to me when they saw me. Some of the more problematic ones were happily surrounding me chatting noisily. They were mainly the Malay boys and they were all of the "same group". While talking to them, my eyes caught sight of a bunch of teachers looking at me, and leading the charge, with fingers happily gossipy pointing my way was Justin. Hmm... Bad omen. They beckoned me but I didn't go over as I was still talking to my students. When I went over after, a few of the more gossipy teachers were laughing and Justin proceeded to summarize loudly for me just what their interesting topic was all about. The T class form teacher was gonna quit the profession and has been mysteriously absent for the past 2 weeks so that group were playing principal and felt that since the kids got along with me, I should be recommended to be their form teacher. I shook my head furiously and kept saying no and while laughing, walked off. Snakes, I tell you, all snakes. Sigh.... better walk away from office politics. I hate those... detest them more than problematic students anyday. Those are about the ugliest faces you can see of teachers. Scary.
But what Justin said was right. I do seem to be dwelling too much on discipline stuff, what with patrolling the grounds, reigning in (or attempting to) students giving trouble. He genuinely asked if I was doing that to score with the supervisors. Sigh... I easily said no to that but I was really stumped when I realised myself I do do things quite out of required duties. Look at me sweets, I'm deviant, I don't take discipline seriously. What the hell is going on? I know a little of what I might be feeling, I know that basically I just wanna reach out to the kids, its really not quite what they're wearing etc that I'm oh so concerned about upholding.
Well... I digress.... It was a wet affair mainly because it began to pour towards the end. Big mad rain! Hope you didn't catch it when you went school.
That's about it for Sports Day... Oh my my.... how forgetful I grow... Have I introduced to the readers our new happy friend who will stay for about a few hundred daily episodes in our life? May I present to you... Sudoku. Cool, clean, fun, puzzling. It's well... basically a puzzle. Oh bother, if any readers do not know what it is, google it. But I do recommended you get a book and try it. As Flips and I found out, it can be quite engaging and fun, it's fun to be doing it with your loved ones too. It can, of course, at times get a little frustrating. =) OOOoooh... 124 am... time for bed! Smell you tomorrow! Have to go for bed now, before the HDB rockets launch without me~ Taa~~~~
Friday, March 31, 2006
Monday, March 27, 2006
Rainy Happy
Surprised? Happy?
Well, I am! Heee... just dropped by your place to walk you to your car at 850am. And though you were late, you still sent me back to school. Well, the reason I decided to drop by was more for selfish purposes. You see, I want to see you. Badly. Therefore I went. And I thought this pleasant surprise might perk you up and start the Monday good too! =)
I can still smell the lingering Escada on my right shoulder. Love it...
See you later soon again darling heh....
I am happy. I want us to be happy. Therefore we are happy.
This great complicated philosophy has been derived from a fellow philosopher who came up with the fantastic mind-bending hard-to-grasp wonder theory of "the more you cough, the more you cough". Absolutely brilliant and fitting.
Well, I am! Heee... just dropped by your place to walk you to your car at 850am. And though you were late, you still sent me back to school. Well, the reason I decided to drop by was more for selfish purposes. You see, I want to see you. Badly. Therefore I went. And I thought this pleasant surprise might perk you up and start the Monday good too! =)
I can still smell the lingering Escada on my right shoulder. Love it...
See you later soon again darling heh....
I am happy. I want us to be happy. Therefore we are happy.
This great complicated philosophy has been derived from a fellow philosopher who came up with the fantastic mind-bending hard-to-grasp wonder theory of "the more you cough, the more you cough". Absolutely brilliant and fitting.
Sunday, March 26, 2006
Sunday Morning of 26th
Yes it is... the morning of yet another beautiful Sunday. But be warned: it is warm. Sticky Warm.
I've just returned from the market with my dad. The poor thing has really aged alot. Lol~ At first I couldn't quite wake myself up at 6am. Was damn sleepyzzz... But unfortunately I had to swiftly ask him to leave the house as I couldn't have him over for tea this early. Sitting there at 85 that early in the morning was truly weird. Firstly, there wasn't you beside me. *Die... I'm... I'm... I'm... addicted to you. Truly I am but loving it* And then.. well... a clinging fearful yet fond feeling of nostalgia. I grew up here. Among the market uncles and aunties. I ran around there, drank tea, ate endlessly of fried carrot cake, fishball mee, fried bee hoon, chwee kway, tidbits that old uncles always bought me, and then pinched my fat cheeks. This was where I grew up. And that, all of that is me. It sure doesn't look like it used to anymore, and it was just like in the movies. An old backdrop superimposes itself on the current scene. You see faded black and white pictures of the place, of people in the past, with faces that have long been blurred, and walking sticks, and heavy oily smells, and the cake shop that has stood all these decades. I see myself running around there, wondering... what should I do for this exciting Sunday morning. Would it be the playground they used to have there? Or the bus stop? Or NTUC? I used to walk the long endless stretches of the marketplace, and the outside of it. I have grown. And somehow grown out of it. I don't belong there anymore, I can't. Though it does feel good to just sit there for a while to sip tea with my dad, and uncles. Yes, uncles, both of them. The afternoon one came earlier to put something there so there we sat, my dad with his younger brothers and his son drinking tea and coffee, not talking much with each other and all looking around. It's weird, warm and funny all at once. Somehow, I'm glad I grew up with that. Because I know inside me that no matter how education and experience change me, I could still mix around with the market crowd and actually enjoy being there for a short while. I want that. Next time, on Sunday mornings, while you and the kids snore, I shall lumber most merrily to the nearest market place, and get the bargains of the day, maybe the eggs or oohh maybe the tofu, and buy food rations for an entire battalion of Hungarian soldiers. (why Hungarian? Hiak hiak.. urmm they might be... hungry? =P) I wish our kids to grow up eating some of our childhood favourite foods too. So that they might know their parents grew up this way, and if they like it, good. If not, well I suppose they would find their own way of life they prefer then.
And last night what i told your sis... i do think its true okie.. I think i fell for you first most definitely, sweetheart... =) When you walked in, I noticed you already and took note of you somehow, though not in some dirty old man way okie... just.... you and the image of you stuck with me from then. Even from then. You're irresistible. Truly.
Sigh... turned my head left a little bit. A friend wants to say hi. Scarlet Pimple says hi. Bleah =P
As I was coming home from the market, I suddenly felt I wanna tell you some Fraz/Rhos story. It's beeen sooooooo soooo long since I last told you one, or sang for you right... Heh... so sorry sweetie. Hee... never mind, these are all I like to do, so while it might have disappeared for a while, I assure you it will be back, and I'll be most delighted to keep it up.
Jialat... I think you're entirely right about what you wrote about V's room. The bedroom scene alone was enough to inspire me to do the same for my room. Endless shelves surronding all the walls. And the music!!! I dunno who sang it etc but I tell you, yes I love it too. And man, I've always wanted a ... sigh word eludes me, what's that machine called? Anyway I've wanted one. They used to have one at the Burger King at Kallang Leisurepark I think, and we used to drop sacks of one-dollar gold coins to play songs. Sonmehow they were mainly Bon Jovi songs, sheesh.. Ahem, I'm feeling a very strong desire right now to go hmv to sweep the jazz cds. And I do mean sweep okie, you wanna go with me? It would feel so sinfully good. We'll get a basket, walk and then take 2 seconds to decide if it's nice or if there's even a song we like, and if there is, we'll drop it into the basket without a second thought. It has to be frivolous and nonchalant okie, stylo... So... wanna go with me? =P
I feel awake. Alive. Yes, it may be a humid day today but I look forward to it, sweating and all. Lol... Most importantly, I look forward to spending time with you, seeing you, and getting to go to church with you.
Alright... this is the last of the post... have to go soon if not I'll be late too... Today 26th of March is also the horrible day which.... my leftover double cream expires =P
Jelly anyone?
I've just returned from the market with my dad. The poor thing has really aged alot. Lol~ At first I couldn't quite wake myself up at 6am. Was damn sleepyzzz... But unfortunately I had to swiftly ask him to leave the house as I couldn't have him over for tea this early. Sitting there at 85 that early in the morning was truly weird. Firstly, there wasn't you beside me. *Die... I'm... I'm... I'm... addicted to you. Truly I am but loving it* And then.. well... a clinging fearful yet fond feeling of nostalgia. I grew up here. Among the market uncles and aunties. I ran around there, drank tea, ate endlessly of fried carrot cake, fishball mee, fried bee hoon, chwee kway, tidbits that old uncles always bought me, and then pinched my fat cheeks. This was where I grew up. And that, all of that is me. It sure doesn't look like it used to anymore, and it was just like in the movies. An old backdrop superimposes itself on the current scene. You see faded black and white pictures of the place, of people in the past, with faces that have long been blurred, and walking sticks, and heavy oily smells, and the cake shop that has stood all these decades. I see myself running around there, wondering... what should I do for this exciting Sunday morning. Would it be the playground they used to have there? Or the bus stop? Or NTUC? I used to walk the long endless stretches of the marketplace, and the outside of it. I have grown. And somehow grown out of it. I don't belong there anymore, I can't. Though it does feel good to just sit there for a while to sip tea with my dad, and uncles. Yes, uncles, both of them. The afternoon one came earlier to put something there so there we sat, my dad with his younger brothers and his son drinking tea and coffee, not talking much with each other and all looking around. It's weird, warm and funny all at once. Somehow, I'm glad I grew up with that. Because I know inside me that no matter how education and experience change me, I could still mix around with the market crowd and actually enjoy being there for a short while. I want that. Next time, on Sunday mornings, while you and the kids snore, I shall lumber most merrily to the nearest market place, and get the bargains of the day, maybe the eggs or oohh maybe the tofu, and buy food rations for an entire battalion of Hungarian soldiers. (why Hungarian? Hiak hiak.. urmm they might be... hungry? =P) I wish our kids to grow up eating some of our childhood favourite foods too. So that they might know their parents grew up this way, and if they like it, good. If not, well I suppose they would find their own way of life they prefer then.
And last night what i told your sis... i do think its true okie.. I think i fell for you first most definitely, sweetheart... =) When you walked in, I noticed you already and took note of you somehow, though not in some dirty old man way okie... just.... you and the image of you stuck with me from then. Even from then. You're irresistible. Truly.
Sigh... turned my head left a little bit. A friend wants to say hi. Scarlet Pimple says hi. Bleah =P
As I was coming home from the market, I suddenly felt I wanna tell you some Fraz/Rhos story. It's beeen sooooooo soooo long since I last told you one, or sang for you right... Heh... so sorry sweetie. Hee... never mind, these are all I like to do, so while it might have disappeared for a while, I assure you it will be back, and I'll be most delighted to keep it up.
Jialat... I think you're entirely right about what you wrote about V's room. The bedroom scene alone was enough to inspire me to do the same for my room. Endless shelves surronding all the walls. And the music!!! I dunno who sang it etc but I tell you, yes I love it too. And man, I've always wanted a ... sigh word eludes me, what's that machine called? Anyway I've wanted one. They used to have one at the Burger King at Kallang Leisurepark I think, and we used to drop sacks of one-dollar gold coins to play songs. Sonmehow they were mainly Bon Jovi songs, sheesh.. Ahem, I'm feeling a very strong desire right now to go hmv to sweep the jazz cds. And I do mean sweep okie, you wanna go with me? It would feel so sinfully good. We'll get a basket, walk and then take 2 seconds to decide if it's nice or if there's even a song we like, and if there is, we'll drop it into the basket without a second thought. It has to be frivolous and nonchalant okie, stylo... So... wanna go with me? =P
I feel awake. Alive. Yes, it may be a humid day today but I look forward to it, sweating and all. Lol... Most importantly, I look forward to spending time with you, seeing you, and getting to go to church with you.
Alright... this is the last of the post... have to go soon if not I'll be late too... Today 26th of March is also the horrible day which.... my leftover double cream expires =P
Jelly anyone?
Saturday, March 25, 2006
Dinner, Movie, and what not
I have to say... once again, its been quite a while since I last blogged...
These few days have been rather fast, and tiring I feel... =) Yes, it is good to know that we're drawing nearer and nearer to the date of concert-watching! Jamie Cullum~~~
Ooh... Sleepy looms in the distance I see... Heh~~
Hope this post makes sense... Well, if it subsequently doesn't, well.... it's meant as just a recollection of some of the stuff we've done. Yes, well, nothing too exciting I know... so sorry... =P
Just came back from dinner at Hanabi at Bukit Timah. It was good~~~ =) The food was enjoyable and the service not bad huh? =) Well, personally I do like it, especially the ramen heh.... and the grilled fish was very good... Wait a minute, don't they offer dessert too? Hmm....
We watched "V for vendetta" too... Hmm, good show. Some very strong points too lol~~ Doesn't the chancellor just reminds us all of someone? Lol~~
Ooh... hmmm... guess thats it... so sorry.... this post has been.. yes well... dodgy... Did I tell you? I love to read you stories. Ahem. Heee.
These few days have been rather fast, and tiring I feel... =) Yes, it is good to know that we're drawing nearer and nearer to the date of concert-watching! Jamie Cullum~~~
Ooh... Sleepy looms in the distance I see... Heh~~
Hope this post makes sense... Well, if it subsequently doesn't, well.... it's meant as just a recollection of some of the stuff we've done. Yes, well, nothing too exciting I know... so sorry... =P
Just came back from dinner at Hanabi at Bukit Timah. It was good~~~ =) The food was enjoyable and the service not bad huh? =) Well, personally I do like it, especially the ramen heh.... and the grilled fish was very good... Wait a minute, don't they offer dessert too? Hmm....
We watched "V for vendetta" too... Hmm, good show. Some very strong points too lol~~ Doesn't the chancellor just reminds us all of someone? Lol~~
Ooh... hmmm... guess thats it... so sorry.... this post has been.. yes well... dodgy... Did I tell you? I love to read you stories. Ahem. Heee.
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
A Lovely Evening
March 21st 2006.
Evening.
You're sleeping, my precious~~ =) Exhausted...
Lovely evening though you know... Cool breeze, greyish light skies, lazy people and things on their way home, slow cars, a very nice smell in the air. Fresh. And refreshing.
Wishing you were here to hold hand in hand. To stroll. Heee... Think it would have been romantic, darling.
Heh, waiting for you this afternoon was funny. Don't worry, I didn't wait long before I saw you in the cab. Lol, saw your eyes popping and double-checking to see if you saw me correctly. Lol~~ Laa laa laa~~ ha ha... now you know why I was asking you to tell me when you nab a cab. Fortunately for you, it wasn't raining that heavily. =) It was.... heaven;y to be able to surprise you, and see ya sweets~~~
Wonder if you're still sleeping. Hmm... -paw-
Evening.
You're sleeping, my precious~~ =) Exhausted...
Lovely evening though you know... Cool breeze, greyish light skies, lazy people and things on their way home, slow cars, a very nice smell in the air. Fresh. And refreshing.
Wishing you were here to hold hand in hand. To stroll. Heee... Think it would have been romantic, darling.
Heh, waiting for you this afternoon was funny. Don't worry, I didn't wait long before I saw you in the cab. Lol, saw your eyes popping and double-checking to see if you saw me correctly. Lol~~ Laa laa laa~~ ha ha... now you know why I was asking you to tell me when you nab a cab. Fortunately for you, it wasn't raining that heavily. =) It was.... heaven;y to be able to surprise you, and see ya sweets~~~
Wonder if you're still sleeping. Hmm... -paw-
Sunday, March 19, 2006
Flipped at 2am
Hello~~~ -Yawn-
It's about 2AM of this sunday morning.... Dark skies loom beneath my quarter-opened eyes. Miss you. Hug please? Hehe
Ahem... took out your letter to read again. Seems like so many things I didn't quite manage to address over at your place. Sorry you didn't quite like the letter I wrote you. Well, it isn't because I had nothing to write to you, just wrote what came to me, so sorry it sounded more like a memo. But it's not supposed to be~~~ -zaaap- Ok, but I do admit there was nothing spectacular about it...
"A tutorial mate who became this sweet, ... .... ... " lol~~ Sigh... yes, I think it would have been fun to be in Wall's classes with you sweetheart. Two's definitely good company. Double the fun for us, double the agony for him... hmmm....
Sweets, I treasure you I do. So I suppose since you wrote about it, you would know how I felt during times I upsetted you and you had to go away. The heart literally feels like it shatters instantaneously into so many tiny pieces onto the floor. The pain seems to drop all the way from your heart endlessly down, pulling and tugging with brute force. And the mind whirls into this blank, the mind seems to melt, can't think. Everyone, everything before me melts, disappears, becomes unimportant as you disappear from my line of sight. The panic grips. I could have sworn the anxiety almost feels painfully sour in you. And there you have, the fears of losing you. Since the day you sashayed in, I had never wanted to see you go. Now, there comes the increasing confidence, the desire, the irreplaceable need... to be one with you for all time to come. I really can't picture going to Italy with anyone else. I want to sit down to quiet dinners of pasta and wine with only you. This world is rather beautiful, and though I will never be able to see all it has to offer, I think it would be nice to stroll through whatever we can together. Even if it's only Sentosa ahem... =P
And if you would permit to say it again, yes my love, share a kitchen with me please. I can't do without you. I've tried before and I know, more so now, that I'll never be able to quit you.
I see faint sunlight?? Oh... MRT repair train lights... Sleepy... off then.. I wanna hold your flippers soon~~~ Heehehee. You = Divine.
It's about 2AM of this sunday morning.... Dark skies loom beneath my quarter-opened eyes. Miss you. Hug please? Hehe
Ahem... took out your letter to read again. Seems like so many things I didn't quite manage to address over at your place. Sorry you didn't quite like the letter I wrote you. Well, it isn't because I had nothing to write to you, just wrote what came to me, so sorry it sounded more like a memo. But it's not supposed to be~~~ -zaaap- Ok, but I do admit there was nothing spectacular about it...
"A tutorial mate who became this sweet, ... .... ... " lol~~ Sigh... yes, I think it would have been fun to be in Wall's classes with you sweetheart. Two's definitely good company. Double the fun for us, double the agony for him... hmmm....
Sweets, I treasure you I do. So I suppose since you wrote about it, you would know how I felt during times I upsetted you and you had to go away. The heart literally feels like it shatters instantaneously into so many tiny pieces onto the floor. The pain seems to drop all the way from your heart endlessly down, pulling and tugging with brute force. And the mind whirls into this blank, the mind seems to melt, can't think. Everyone, everything before me melts, disappears, becomes unimportant as you disappear from my line of sight. The panic grips. I could have sworn the anxiety almost feels painfully sour in you. And there you have, the fears of losing you. Since the day you sashayed in, I had never wanted to see you go. Now, there comes the increasing confidence, the desire, the irreplaceable need... to be one with you for all time to come. I really can't picture going to Italy with anyone else. I want to sit down to quiet dinners of pasta and wine with only you. This world is rather beautiful, and though I will never be able to see all it has to offer, I think it would be nice to stroll through whatever we can together. Even if it's only Sentosa ahem... =P
And if you would permit to say it again, yes my love, share a kitchen with me please. I can't do without you. I've tried before and I know, more so now, that I'll never be able to quit you.
I see faint sunlight?? Oh... MRT repair train lights... Sleepy... off then.. I wanna hold your flippers soon~~~ Heehehee. You = Divine.
Thursday, March 16, 2006
Pills, Powders, Perspiration
You might have noticed the song had been changed... lol... yes well... it's a track from Ocean's Twelve where Brad Pitt was reliving some past. I like this piece alot, somehow I find it very stirring...
On days like these, my ever-youthful vibrant ways are simply not enough and I'm reminded of my own mortality.
On days like these, I can understand why Dorian Gray did what he did.
On days like these when I'm sick, I feel helpless.
Lying on my bed, weird thoughts, people, thoughts, old pictures, old movies, philosophies, morals, readings, countries zip by. I lose track of time also.
Don't you dare for a moment blame yourself for any of these. And I can tell you, you're the sole reason why I wanna recover quickly, and you're the sole reason why I don't feel that shitty and bad. I know that even though you're in Tampines, and doing work, you care for me. Silly, it's fine really. Nobody likes to be sick I guess, but it comes. Even to Poohs.
I saw the Brothers Grimm. =) I tell you, it was sweet. I walked into the cinema, and saw me and you seated there. and you flinched when a horrible scene came along. I smiled. We were seated so far apart I tell you. Man, I never ever want that again. I wanna be close close close to you. I had wanted to walk up and say, look, you two seem like you might fall in love. Madly. Wonder how they might have taken it then? Did I ever tell you this? I think going to the movies with you was enjoyable, even from then I felt that. Lol~~
Sitting here typing, I see the diet powder thingy... Yucks hahahaha~~~Wonder how it tastes like. Speaking of taste.... man..... i hate it leh... everytime I'm sick, the weirdest food cravings would come. Things like soon kueh etc and I'll be telling myself "look you're sick, what better time than now to eat these?" Hmm.... Then there's other food which could potentially kill me, like mee pok dry with chilli, steak, KFC, pizza(bleah), cakes....
The bedsheets would have to be changed =( While asleep, I think I perspired a bit. But it did make me feel better though. Tomorrow's Friday!!!!!! Yayy~~~~ Always has a mysterious, happy, adventurous, sexy feel to it. I love Fridays, especially if I spend it with you. Looking forward to seeing ya tomorrow, sweetheart~~~ I love you very much! And thanks, these days I wasn't feeling well, I know you didn't feel good either sigh... But don't you fret okie, RECOVERY well on the way hehe~~
On days like these, my ever-youthful vibrant ways are simply not enough and I'm reminded of my own mortality.
On days like these, I can understand why Dorian Gray did what he did.
On days like these when I'm sick, I feel helpless.
Lying on my bed, weird thoughts, people, thoughts, old pictures, old movies, philosophies, morals, readings, countries zip by. I lose track of time also.
Don't you dare for a moment blame yourself for any of these. And I can tell you, you're the sole reason why I wanna recover quickly, and you're the sole reason why I don't feel that shitty and bad. I know that even though you're in Tampines, and doing work, you care for me. Silly, it's fine really. Nobody likes to be sick I guess, but it comes. Even to Poohs.
I saw the Brothers Grimm. =) I tell you, it was sweet. I walked into the cinema, and saw me and you seated there. and you flinched when a horrible scene came along. I smiled. We were seated so far apart I tell you. Man, I never ever want that again. I wanna be close close close to you. I had wanted to walk up and say, look, you two seem like you might fall in love. Madly. Wonder how they might have taken it then? Did I ever tell you this? I think going to the movies with you was enjoyable, even from then I felt that. Lol~~
Sitting here typing, I see the diet powder thingy... Yucks hahahaha~~~Wonder how it tastes like. Speaking of taste.... man..... i hate it leh... everytime I'm sick, the weirdest food cravings would come. Things like soon kueh etc and I'll be telling myself "look you're sick, what better time than now to eat these?" Hmm.... Then there's other food which could potentially kill me, like mee pok dry with chilli, steak, KFC, pizza(bleah), cakes....
The bedsheets would have to be changed =( While asleep, I think I perspired a bit. But it did make me feel better though. Tomorrow's Friday!!!!!! Yayy~~~~ Always has a mysterious, happy, adventurous, sexy feel to it. I love Fridays, especially if I spend it with you. Looking forward to seeing ya tomorrow, sweetheart~~~ I love you very much! And thanks, these days I wasn't feeling well, I know you didn't feel good either sigh... But don't you fret okie, RECOVERY well on the way hehe~~
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
I'm thinking of you at 8:53pm
Utter rubbish dear darling.... lol =P it was very nice reading your posting, always has been~~
As I looked at my own blog, it was with some surprise to realise it really has been quite a while since I last posted anything lol~ Sure dont feel that long~
Didn't feel that fantastic yesterday cause I had a headache and according to Kylie Minogue and my girlfriend, I was burning up. Lol~~
However, yesterday also gave me many touching moments, courtesy of Flippers. Darling, people do fall sick from time to time, don't be too worried or sad for me kie. When I saw your face, that worried grave look, first in school and then at my place again, I felt sad too. It's really nothing too serious alright sweetheart, and more importantly, I hope you aren't feeling any bit of guilt whatsoever because it's nothing along that line, please alright? =)
I love it when you gave me the massage on the forehead. For that moment, I could swear it wasn't the headache that made me slightly dazed and light-headed. It was you. It's really something of a very happy luxury to be able to gaze at you. To run the eyes up and down that long, soft hair. Then the forehead, and gradually the perfect eyebrows and lashes to the knowing eyes. There's always something about gazing right into your eyes I can't quite describe. But yes, I love it. It's almost as if I spiral madly and fall endlessly. And yes, of course we wouldn't forget, the red luscious lips. Hmm tempting. Even a slight pout or a little crooked smile is enough to melt me. I told you this before right, well.. I love your skin, the fair tone, the flawless smoothness. It's very beautiful just to even look already, much less feel. The neck, the collar-bone... Ahem. This is the point where a significant amount of restraint and mental moral muscles have to be deployed to pull the eyes back on proper tracks... =P
It feels wonderful when you are drying me up with the towel also. It really really really feels very intimate, a very sweet warm homely sensation. Well, at least that was before the lingering kiss on the back....
Remember this line that you said to me "I don't mind, we could have sore throat together". You don't know the impact of that line on me... Sigh... given your fear of throat issues, I didn't think it was an easy thing for you to say sweetie.... Silly silly sweetie.... If Hollywood had to express how I felt onto film right, they would have done one of those cliff-hanging scenes where I would be hanging on for dear life, gradually losing grip and giving up. There you'll be, looming over me, all cool and glam, tugging at me with all your might, refusing to let go, saying something silly, sacrificial and sentimental like "if we go down, we go down together". =)
Well, sweetie, I'm saying this for the dunno how many time, but it's really very sweet and gracious of you to appreciate and enjoy the cooking. I shall try to explain somehow that warm feeling it gives me. Other people, my mother and brother included, have told me before they think the cooking is good, but it's a totally different feeling when you sit down, smell the food, smile and savor it together with me. Yes.... glad to cook for you a lifetime ahem....*notice despite being all mushy and giddy with love, I do not fall into the trap of saying something like I shall wash the dishes too and all other household chores lol*
Today, we went Yum cha, with your whole family. Haha~ quite lively and fun I must say. What with a summary of weird jokes, quotes and bad sayings.
As I looked at my own blog, it was with some surprise to realise it really has been quite a while since I last posted anything lol~ Sure dont feel that long~
Didn't feel that fantastic yesterday cause I had a headache and according to Kylie Minogue and my girlfriend, I was burning up. Lol~~
However, yesterday also gave me many touching moments, courtesy of Flippers. Darling, people do fall sick from time to time, don't be too worried or sad for me kie. When I saw your face, that worried grave look, first in school and then at my place again, I felt sad too. It's really nothing too serious alright sweetheart, and more importantly, I hope you aren't feeling any bit of guilt whatsoever because it's nothing along that line, please alright? =)
I love it when you gave me the massage on the forehead. For that moment, I could swear it wasn't the headache that made me slightly dazed and light-headed. It was you. It's really something of a very happy luxury to be able to gaze at you. To run the eyes up and down that long, soft hair. Then the forehead, and gradually the perfect eyebrows and lashes to the knowing eyes. There's always something about gazing right into your eyes I can't quite describe. But yes, I love it. It's almost as if I spiral madly and fall endlessly. And yes, of course we wouldn't forget, the red luscious lips. Hmm tempting. Even a slight pout or a little crooked smile is enough to melt me. I told you this before right, well.. I love your skin, the fair tone, the flawless smoothness. It's very beautiful just to even look already, much less feel. The neck, the collar-bone... Ahem. This is the point where a significant amount of restraint and mental moral muscles have to be deployed to pull the eyes back on proper tracks... =P
It feels wonderful when you are drying me up with the towel also. It really really really feels very intimate, a very sweet warm homely sensation. Well, at least that was before the lingering kiss on the back....
Remember this line that you said to me "I don't mind, we could have sore throat together". You don't know the impact of that line on me... Sigh... given your fear of throat issues, I didn't think it was an easy thing for you to say sweetie.... Silly silly sweetie.... If Hollywood had to express how I felt onto film right, they would have done one of those cliff-hanging scenes where I would be hanging on for dear life, gradually losing grip and giving up. There you'll be, looming over me, all cool and glam, tugging at me with all your might, refusing to let go, saying something silly, sacrificial and sentimental like "if we go down, we go down together". =)
Well, sweetie, I'm saying this for the dunno how many time, but it's really very sweet and gracious of you to appreciate and enjoy the cooking. I shall try to explain somehow that warm feeling it gives me. Other people, my mother and brother included, have told me before they think the cooking is good, but it's a totally different feeling when you sit down, smell the food, smile and savor it together with me. Yes.... glad to cook for you a lifetime ahem....*notice despite being all mushy and giddy with love, I do not fall into the trap of saying something like I shall wash the dishes too and all other household chores lol*
Today, we went Yum cha, with your whole family. Haha~ quite lively and fun I must say. What with a summary of weird jokes, quotes and bad sayings.
Malice - mother of lice
LOSY
in cognito - in cornetto
Lol.... sigh hmm.... wondering if I should write these down though... The girlfriend has recently taken to showing off lotsa incriminating stuff, both written and verbal. Hmmm....
I sense that this afternoon's short visit is not gonna be the last anytime soon for that horrible old monster- Grouchy. It's pretty amazing though because I know you are pretty capable of handling it, even if you take a bit of time. For me, sometimes, when it strikes, it can have such an ugly effect on me.... sigh
Read your posting and there were some things that struck me... minds that have been opened can never be shrunk down to size again... I guess so... I used to think that too last time when I attempt to reason out why it is that I find it difficult sometimes to fit into the family. Don't get me wrong, my family is nice, and I like my family, parents and brother, but I can feel it in me when we spend an extended amount of time together that there is a gap in understanding. I feel sad. I wish there wasn't. There were so many times I wished I could undo the things I did, the steps I took, so this cursed mind wouldn't be what it is today, intellectually or emotionally.
Oh well.... I digress...
Yup! Whatever the case, I agree, I think you should just enjoy this last semester and university classes, Lit classes. I like what you said about Yeoh, super cool. "He has made great changes in my life at times when I didn't yet know I needed them" Very nice... Took this one line only, no need to cite, or block or leave footnote etc la right?
To conclude, I'm really okay with changes in plans, or cancellations of it. I understand perfectly sweetie. And in fact, I rather that. Anything as long as it works for you darling. That would be the best for me too. =) Off to try and finish up Genesis...
*MMUUUUUUUUAAAACCCCCKKKKKKKKK!!!!*
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Wednesday, March 08, 2006
The Ice Kacang Night
I know this isn't something big or whatever... well, it's just a thought I had while I was on the way to your place tonight with the ice kachang...
I was stuck in traffic for a while so by the time I got to Avenue 7 it was alot later than I expected... As I waited to turn right to your place, I bagan to wonder if I should bring you the ice-kacang. What if the ice had melted? Surely all that fine ice must have melted by then. Can the surrounding cubes of ice really help? Do I still tell you I had wanted to buy you ice-kacang?
Lol... questions questions questions... In the end, I thought, "ah what the hell, might still be icy, so just bring up for her!" Fortunately, it's still rather intact. And I do hope you like it. And that it helps the craving. =) Well, always better to get you something you need/want than getting you other stuff you might not. Happy happy happy~~~
Even happier to sit beside you tonight to read, play with B, look at your room, steal peeks at you. All lovely. Muack!!
I was stuck in traffic for a while so by the time I got to Avenue 7 it was alot later than I expected... As I waited to turn right to your place, I bagan to wonder if I should bring you the ice-kacang. What if the ice had melted? Surely all that fine ice must have melted by then. Can the surrounding cubes of ice really help? Do I still tell you I had wanted to buy you ice-kacang?
Lol... questions questions questions... In the end, I thought, "ah what the hell, might still be icy, so just bring up for her!" Fortunately, it's still rather intact. And I do hope you like it. And that it helps the craving. =) Well, always better to get you something you need/want than getting you other stuff you might not. Happy happy happy~~~
Even happier to sit beside you tonight to read, play with B, look at your room, steal peeks at you. All lovely. Muack!!
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
A Poem to Take Away from Boring Meetings
Below is a poem I spent the entire hours in the meeting to pen. It's not fantastic mainly because it's sort of born from mad scribblings and hallucinations from missing the girlfriend. It is done in imitation of Eliot's Wasteland fragmented fashion and also to reflect the author's mood. So here goes:
Frivolous Fragments
Speakers with loud-speakers speaking.
I hear
Nothing. Are your eyes heavy?
Mine are not, while resting.
Many messy mental misses. Misses
Miss Flips.
Fill in what data slips??
That fat pea(1) is not stopping.
People are talking.
Sleep is falling
Flippers calling
Sweet dreams willing
Footnotes:
(1) Pea is the teacher's code for... Principal
Monday, March 06, 2006
Annual General Meeting
ANNUAL GENERAL STAFF MEETING
Greetings colleagues and fans,
For the Annual General Meeting, which technically can't quite be called annual since it's the first time we're holding it now, but anyway.... the minutes-taker (aka underpaid under-appreciated scribe) is generously provided by the managerial department. (That being, let's see... only me?)
As you all surely know by now, my name is Rhos. I'm currently the... as the movie "Geisha" would put it, I'm currently the Hatsumomo in the okiya right now. As such, I deem it fit that I host this meeting to tidy up some administration matters and set our priorities and targets.
Firstly, I've been informed of the results of the Oscars. Congratulations Tom for this Razzie whatever award you've been given. (psst psssst psst pst psssst) Oh, I didn't know that award was to make fun of you. Oh well.
Has anyone seen this movie "Crash"? What's it all about anyway? Seems like it just came quickly out of the blue and broke the back of Brokeback Mountain. Pity. I do like cowboy clothes.
Well, it looks like this year there's no Titanic, and everyone shares the various awards. This brings to mind another concern. I've decided not to completely give up on movies, so when the tons of directors flood us with script offers, get my manager (that's me too) to look through it. Previously, I'm not very receptive towards roles that are too commercialised but now I feel that occasionally, I should try to appeal to the masses, so make a note on that.
This leads to another unhappy thought. In my opinion, the current company we're working for, is not giving us (you mean... you only) the chances we deserve, nor are they fighting to work on many of the fantastic projects out there. I could have been cast in Brokeback Mountain as a sheepherding dog or something but no.... I could have won Best Supporting Actor with that. I therefore propose the staff here, together with me, leave this company.
Where are we to go then? Good question. After careful planning, I've decided to set up my own artiste management company and I would like to invite all of the staff to work for me instead. Give it some thought and tell me tomorrow if you'll like to come over to the new company immediately or stay in this current one till after bonus payout. Yes, you may have noticed that saying no is not an option. Either you join me, or... you switch industries and go make french fries or something. People, help keep a lookout for dynamic individuals with expertise in makeup, investment and shopping. I need a makeup consultant, a financial investor and a image consultant. It would be ideal if if could all be one person, we could save alot on salary that way.
If you are curious to know, the new company I plan to set up is going to be diversified. We will manage various types of artistes, from Hollywood to Bollywood to Mediacorp to basically any other workfields in the world. In fact, we could also manage people who are financial investors or image consultants etc.
We have come to the end of the Annual General Meeting. Thank you for your time.
Total number of staff: 2
Total number present: 2
Minutes-taker: who else?? Beep
Sunday, March 05, 2006
Social Work Journal Publications
The Dynamics of a Cohesive Domestic Family in Singapore
Abstract
There has been extensive research and information on family dynamics and interaction patterns. However, this large body of information tends to be more applicable to Western countries such as America, Canada and Australia. Thus, there is really not a "typical Singaporean Family" that can be defined, hypothesized or compared with. In this essay, with the unwilling and unknowing assistance of a family in Singapore, I shall attempt to justify my conviction that families in Singapore can indeed also be better defined.
Method
A deliberate sample of one family, consisting of the father, mother and two daughters, was chosen as research participant for this study. For the sake of unbiased observation that is crucial to this study, participants have not been briefed from start to end.
One Sunday was spent with the family to observe them at home.
Conclusion
From the observation, it would be easy to conlude that the research participants form what we term as an enmeshed family. It should be highlighted that the word "enmeshed" refers to the family being closely knitted and each member understands the others well.
Some of the observations that demonstrate an enmeshed family include jokes, laughters and questions that are heartily exchanged and repeated by the entire family. For instance, the mother was showing visible signs of fatigue and the others in the family were teasing her the entire day for having drank too much wine last night. The whole family, even the observer, were very open to gossips and more jokes on this matter, and it could stretch the entire day.
The family dog is also a crucial sign that indicates the type of family it lives with. The family dog is on very good terms with the whole family and in the late afternoon, there was such an incident that exactly supported this. The dog had left its own feaces and urine all over the house. However, the family mainly laughed at it and mockingly threatened the dog. The dog was evidently not intimidated. The family, and also the observer, then went about cleaning up the whole house of the dog's waste materials.
From the findings stated above, I think it should be evident to any reader that this family involved in the study was a happy, warm family, and fully displayed signs of a cohesive, closely bonded and enmeshed family. There are of course, pros and cons to this family model but since it is not the main concern in this paper, I shall not digress. Basically, I believe there are other different family models in Singapore, but not every one may necessarily exemplify the dynamics of a cohesive domestic family. In conlusion, I would like to stress once again that from the salient points above, I have only illustrated some examples of the dynamics of a cohesive, enmeshed family. Given more time and resources, I would surely be able to give a fuller, more detailed account. In fact, I would like that.
This connection
Seriously... when this "connection" happens, I laugh and I think to myself many thoughts. And I'm especially happy. Somehow, I feel it's telling us something. Lol~~~ Laa laa laa~~SOB spotted!
All the simultaneous similar thoughts, the cravings, the words, the "psssts"... I know it might not always be like that but that's alright, I understand it doesn't always mean we need to have this "connection" 24/7 to feel you. I don't need that to know that I feel you. Every everyday in my life sweetheart.
All the simultaneous similar thoughts, the cravings, the words, the "psssts"... I know it might not always be like that but that's alright, I understand it doesn't always mean we need to have this "connection" 24/7 to feel you. I don't need that to know that I feel you. Every everyday in my life sweetheart.
A Pandan Leave
It is green.
It is leafy.
Resilient through the harsh weather.
Fragrant, or so they claim.
Like a flower, bend in the breeze.
Sway with me.
Beautiful, amongst all the other pretty pandan leaves.
Plucked.
Washed.
Thrown into a boiling pot of barley.
Either that or into the chicken rice.
A noble deed indeed.
It is leafy.
Resilient through the harsh weather.
Fragrant, or so they claim.
Like a flower, bend in the breeze.
Sway with me.
Beautiful, amongst all the other pretty pandan leaves.
Plucked.
Washed.
Thrown into a boiling pot of barley.
Either that or into the chicken rice.
A noble deed indeed.
A Chinese Wedding
It is really frustrating how Chinese always seem to have a major problem with keeping time for weddings. Guests arrive late, food starts late, everyone ends up going home late...
But.. today, despite all these, it was still very heartwarming to see my cousin get married. Powerpoint slides with their marriage pictures flashed with Christian music accompanying. Though it is rather troublesome walking about and all that, but my cousin and his wife seemed to be having quite alot of fun. I suppose that's the whole point of inviting friends and families together.
The venue, the food shouldn't matter that much. It's really the atmosphere and people that makes it different. Seeing them running about table to table playing mad games that involve my poor cousin having to put on a black g-string and drinking enough alcohol to fuel rockets, was really quite heartwarming and cute. Ahem... running about seeing happy friends and families and drinking and getting teased at looks all sweet and appealing tonight. As I looked at the two of them onstage drinking the champagne, I wanted to call you. I wanna share that with you sweetie. *bluuuush*
But.. today, despite all these, it was still very heartwarming to see my cousin get married. Powerpoint slides with their marriage pictures flashed with Christian music accompanying. Though it is rather troublesome walking about and all that, but my cousin and his wife seemed to be having quite alot of fun. I suppose that's the whole point of inviting friends and families together.
The venue, the food shouldn't matter that much. It's really the atmosphere and people that makes it different. Seeing them running about table to table playing mad games that involve my poor cousin having to put on a black g-string and drinking enough alcohol to fuel rockets, was really quite heartwarming and cute. Ahem... running about seeing happy friends and families and drinking and getting teased at looks all sweet and appealing tonight. As I looked at the two of them onstage drinking the champagne, I wanted to call you. I wanna share that with you sweetie. *bluuuush*
Thursday, March 02, 2006
Have I
Have I told you lately...
that I think you look gorgeous today?
that I feel its rare and sweet that we both love so much similar food?
that I wanna share a packet of chwee kway with you?
that I think your name is ultra cool?
that I'm thankful you came into my life and actually decided to stay?
that I love you specially dropping by to keep me company?
that I am gonna enjoy our hunting sessions armed with the makansutra?
that I feel blessed?
that roller-blading is fun and enjoyable?
that holding your hand and strolling is still so damn exciting?
that I love you?
that I think you look gorgeous today?
that I feel its rare and sweet that we both love so much similar food?
that I wanna share a packet of chwee kway with you?
that I think your name is ultra cool?
that I'm thankful you came into my life and actually decided to stay?
that I love you specially dropping by to keep me company?
that I am gonna enjoy our hunting sessions armed with the makansutra?
that I feel blessed?
that roller-blading is fun and enjoyable?
that holding your hand and strolling is still so damn exciting?
that I love you?
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