C N Y

Last night was good... sweet.... Why? Sigh, because I got to see you~~ And played chinese checkers, even played Sega... and and and!!!!! Ordered Mac!!!!!!!!! Cool!!!!!!!!!! Man, I realise I'm always very very happy and comfortable around you sugar~~

Sigh for the whole of today, even at my auntie's... thoughts drifted to and about you... hehehe =P
I can't describe it.. but when I awoke from the dream I was very very happy... Seems like a long time since we had the time to sit down and chat and play around lol~~~ Darling, I really think you're cute, and I like the way you talk, like the way you make noise about angbaos, elaborate on where you hid during hide-and-seek~~~ Can't get enough of you.

But hey... am i getting on your nerves with all this talk or something? Dunno.... feel you're a bit not yourself whenever I talk to you about these things nowadays... Well, hope I am not doing anything that's irritating. And, tell me if anything's bothering you kie...

Love
Tumz

Is This a Time Warp???

Tell me.... really have we been together for 4 months already? Already? It feels as though we've been stuck in some time warp where time runs on super fast tiptoe Golden Axe style dragon fashion. Really that's how I feel~~

I enjoy all the stuff we do together. And the chinese checkers sessions. Whenever I know I get to see you after school, I look forward to it like mad. I feel very comfortable being with you. I love dashing quickly across car parks and void decks and corridors with you to catch chinese drama serials. I love standing and waiting for you outside the bathroom that gave us the chance to talk. I love you.

For all the things I know and see you doing for me, and surely also those I failed to see, I thank you... Thank you for loving me sweetie. I need a zillion million more 4months together with you. I want only you~

Cafes, Poodles with parsley & Chinese Checkers

I really must say for the both of us, we're very happy with CL's reccomendation of this cafe we went to this afternoon. The ambience is good, it's quiet, the prices are alright and the food and drinks are good. Well, a word of caution. It's not very very easily accessible. But once you've got past the corny name (it's actually called Miss U Cafe!!! Wa lau... lots of bad jokes but shall refrain), and manage to find your way there, one would feel comfortable there. It's located very near Bedok Simpang, along the road Jalan Pari Burong. Yes, it IS in Singapore, for those who are thinking similarly it sounds like some road in Johor. Because it was a brief stay, we had only the carbonara, chocolate milkshake and iced coffee. I would say that the chocolate milkshake is fantastic, not too thin or bland like how some cafes make it. The iced coffee comes self-equipped with syrup and milk, so for people who need more milk to blend, you need not worry about being paiseh for having to ask for more milk. And now, for my favourite: carbonara. Nice. I wish I could do something like that.... Note to other people who might similarly be contract bound to eccentric pink poodles: the carbonara is served with parsley which might look good on the pink poodle.

The tarts are everywhere...

Uh huh.... a famous line... And I assume you'll forget it so I see it as my duty to help you remember it lol~~~ I tell you... I love going to your place and spending time there with you. It's sweet. Bubblez is hilarious.... And I forgot to tell you today... the tea you made for me tastes great! No difference from tea made by anyone from home okay... Not like what you proclaimed about it being lousy. Not at all sweetheart. And I tell you, Chinese checkers is tough lol~~ Together we shall find some way to beat Ah Lai. Somehow. Sitting there playing Sega with you was yes, I can see, stressful.. lol~~ but I love it!! Hehehe madly... =P

... Darling, you really don't always have to hold my hand... In fact, I think the job scope entails that I should be the one doing more of that for you lol~~~ I'm fine with what you want. In fact, I really want to know what you want, how you feel. I'm sure, for everything, we can talk about it and come to some resolution or compromise where both of us can be comfortable. Yes, I do wish I could make you feel comfortable being with me. =)

Was at the lift of my flat when the thought popped into my head once again... The thought of how amazed, how incredible, how wonderful, how greatful I feel, that you, once a tutorial mate I only stole glances of, that I get to share this sweet connection with you. And now I get to call you Flips. Heeheee~ I love you, everything about you in fact. Sometimes, I really don't think it would be too much to say that my life, my beliefs have found a pivot point since I got to know you better.

The Pinks

The Pinks was a boyband consisting of two members. Both members are outrageuosly pink in color which was why they came to call themselves The Pinks. Though many people have felt that the two members look alike, there are still some rather distinct differences between the two.

Many fans have also pointed out that the two members, Fraz and Rhos, looks vastly different. Who then, was more popular amongst screaming hormonal-pimple bursting young girls? Indeed, that may well have been the cause of their success and eventually their split.

Somewhere in 2005, Rhos and Fraz met. Because of their extraordinary good looks, famous music producer David Geffen decided to make them into every teenage girl's dream come true. Yes, the formula worked wonderfully, the band name, the publicity, the good looks, the digitally synchronized singing. The Pinks were red hot in a matter of mere months.

However, booze, ugly publicity and jealousy soon changed things. There were simply too many things The Pinks could not control. For example, their fans, consisting mainly of screaming teenage girls could not quite sustain simply because the girls grow up. Besides, the music industry can be a very competitive and heartless place to be. Thus, as with all previous boybands, The Pinks announced officially they were going their separate ways.

Since then, the 2 members have taken on vastly different jobs. Fraz, the quiet clean one, is apparently venturing into the F&B industry while Rhos is atempting to break into Hollywood and prove himself capable of being an efficient singer-actor.

Are there chances of them ever getting back together? Well, apparently, fans hoping for this might have to be disappointed. At least for now, Rhos and Fraz are not quite on talking terms. In fact, there have been unconfirmed sources stating that Fraz was punched by Rhos a few weeks back. Well, fans... we can only hope to be able to see or hear The Pinks soon.

MTV Live

Below is an authentic interview MTV had with Rhos, ex-member of famous boyband The Pinks, a few months back.


MTV: So Rhos, welcome! Nice to have you with us here today. It's been quite a while since we last heard from you yeah?

Rhos: Hi! WELL, no it hasn't been that long actually. Just that I've been busy lately. Was reading through some scripts. Oh dear, I don't think I should be saying this you know oh but anyway, yeah I've been trying to sort out the tons of scripts...

MTV: I see... From Hollywood, yes?

Rhos: Well, of course. What, you think I would settle for anything lesser? I guess it helps that I've got some good friends over at LA doing movies. Steven and George those guys, always trying to get me to star in their movies you know. It's rather difficult, I never quite know how to tell them I can't.

MTV: You can't? What? Do you mean as in you think you can't quite act?

Rhos: No, I'm not saying that, those are Justin Timberlake type toyboys you know. I mean to say that I can't simply because the schedule ain't permitting it.

MTV: I see I see. Oh Rhos, we've been hearing rumors that there's this particular fan of yours who's been trying to book your time through your manager? Who's she? Is she a friend or yours or your manager?

Rhos: Urmm, well... She's more of an urmm... intimate friend of KT, my manager....

MTV: Oooh... sounds like gossip. What sorta intimate friend may we ask?

Rhos: I don't gossip you know. Besides, isn't this interview supposed to be about me? What's it got to do, of all things, about my manager anyway? If you guys are interested to know, I heard from KT that the fan has offered rather attractive offers he said he can't quite resist. Though he did mention something about how the payment will be used to offset his commission and stuff.

MTV: So you're not aware of the amount? And you won't be getting any of it?

Rhos: Well technically, I do owe KT commissions and stuff you know. But I'm perfectly cool with the arrangement. KT's a good manager, and I'm sure he knows what's best for the both of us.

MTV: I see. Well, some fans have also been emailing MTV to enquire if it's true that last Friday you and Fraz nearly got into a fight?

Rhos: Haha, no no, that's not true.

MTV: There were people who claimed they saw you guys you know. And it's kinda hard to mistake that pink flamboyant look of you two...

Rhos: No, like I said, it's not true. News these days will say anything to sell. But I'm cool with it I guess. At some point, you just become zen master of it all.

MTV: Alright alright. One last question Rhos. So what are your plans now that you've gone separate ways with Fraz? Would there be any chance of you guys getting back together?

Rhos: Yeah, I think that would be nice. I love that idea! Though I'm not sure if Fraz might be open to that idea. Well, I mean he's busy and all you know. I wanna respect his decisions you know. Yeah... Hmm, let's see. I suppose I'll do what I've always wanted to do but never had the opportunity and time to. I would take up courses such as yoga and maybe even enrol in a university. Even though I never have much time to spare, I think it's important to cultivate yourself. It'll be sad if celebrities just waste their time and money partying away till they become wasted you know.

MTV: Alright. Thanks Rhos. It's been nice to have you with us tonight! Wow, that was wonderful!

Rhos: Yup, me too man! Anytime! I'm always glad to be on MTV you know. I love you all! Thanks!

This weird night

I can't believe it. Meeting an old friend at Simpang lol~ We look alike huh =P

Yes I guess you're probably right... Sometimes I can't understand why I think or feel this way, it's not pleasant, ugly in fact. On a lighter note, hey, you and me, we're just a letter away: you're pRetty while I'm petty. Lol~~ Oh well, at least sometimes, or for some things I guess. I know I'm wrong to feel this way, just that sometimes I don't quite like the way Wenxiong talks I guess. Somehow, he gives me the feeling the way he talks seems to overstep some kinda boundary he should observe in relation to him being a friend, and you being my girlfriend. Petty huh... Well, at least I feel that I can change that way I feel. Yes I certainly can. And you, thank you, you do contribute greatly in helping me feel more secured about these things, you know.

You ease me.

You do too much for me.

You pamper me.

You love me.

Gonna call you soon! =) Suddenly, I feel I would like to be in church soon. There with you. Can't wait to see you! =)

TV Fever

OOOoooh... what's with the recent revival of interest in TV? Lol~~~ It's been years since I sat down to any TV programmes. Ever since my parents threw away that favourite sofa of mine I think.

But... hehe~ yesterday night, curled up there with you beside me on the cold recently-mopped marble floor eating hot pratas, watching a local Chinese drama with you on TV was absolutely blissful.

I remember there was a time when I was a big TV fan, and I would be glued to the TV for hours to practically any show. I still recall they used to have two slots for local drama serials: 645pm and 830pm I think. My family used to have our dinner while watching the 645pm show. Hmm, I seem to have this memory of catching Wheel of Fortune while my mum was still cooking dinner hmm... I would always be very sad when the show ends. That was my cue to go bring out that hideous stack of assessment books and homework to do. Mum would designate pages for me to do and I had to finish it before I could watch the 830pm one. Lol~~ Hated that... Indeed... TV had been fun, a part of my life. I wonder if it's still the same or as much for kids growing up in this Internet age. I don't really think it's because I got Cancan to walk and etc that I stopped watching TV, so why did I stop? I think I recall watching them when I was in Uni Year One. That horrible year where Seet changed my perspective of looking at a play, a show. I watched for the actor's grasp of acting technicalities, his body language, his eyes to find discrepancies between his lines, his persona and the real person. And I must admit, we do have some rather shitty actors. They kinda gave me goose pimples just watching because they just don't flow with the characters being played. So I guess, gradually that, coupled with school and Cancan, led me further away from TV.

Though I must say, as I sat there watching TV with you last night. I love it. The show was believable, and there was you beside me. I can't quite word that feeling, that immense feeling of happiness, of gratitude I feel. I love the times we spend together! Hehe~ As the actor of a show we watched recently said, "I'll willingly be your SOB for life..." =P


-SOB-

Friday Reading Club Findings

1. Your friends, all 6 of u, are not quite sane lol
2. "A new world order; a world in disorder."
3. Flippers told me this interesting line from Emerson I think, that if by nature I were the son of the devil, then naturally I'll be the son of the devil. Something like that. I like it for it echoes something from a song by Guns & Roses, something about being the "son of a gun, or gun of a son, it's all me". Something like that. I've always fancied this idea. I guess one would have to, if one never did quite fit in while growing up...

Checklist of 10 Ways to Tell If You're Aging!

Ever felt you do not quite look your age? Or wondered how old you are? Ever thought if you're still considered young? Or labelled old? Well, here's a checklist that parallels any other efficient ones from CLEO and Her World. This intellectual, sophisticated and quick checklist will allow troubled readers, both male and female, to finally be able to ascertain if you are indeed old and soggy, or if you are young, vibrant and ready for the dance floors! Best of all: It's free of charge! So come on and try it out, all you slow-mo hormones and tetesterones~~~

10 WAYS TO TELL IF YOU ARE OLD

1. When you need more than one big candle for your birthday cake.
2. When the birthday cake had to be reduced in fats and sugar.
3. When even after that, you still aren't allowed even a piece of your own birthday cake.
4. When you can't quite remember your own age.
5. When you don't know where you (mis)placed your specs.
6. When you start shopping for different colored dentures.
7. When you no longer crack your knuckles for fear of impending rheumatism.
8. When you feel happier getting a pimple than a wrinkle.
9. When you stop giving your kids pocketmoney & try to get it from them instead.
10. When you think that crappy checklists like this can tell you you're not.

Rhos... Exposed

y.e.s.

m.e.

I lov ya all!

I love pink. My butt is pink heck.

Warm Night of Friends & Coffee

Yesterday night, Sweetie & I drove to Siglap to meet my two bumbling sidekick friends for a drink. We settled for CoffeeClub. Whew, for a while I was worried the dynamics might be uncomfortable since it was really the first time I was meeting Juliet and them meeting my pretty sugar~~ Lol~~ but sometimes, its rather amazing isn't it, how people would feel comfortable with one another. I suppose it helps that Juliet was an ok person to get along with, and you are simply wonderfully engaging. Was thinking about what you said last night about how you felt quite comfortable talking to them for you see bits of me in them. Lol, yes sadly or not, I do have to agree with that. We are like this palette with colors swirling and mixing abit each with other. Thankfully, we do still retain the original self more or less hehe~~ Hmm, do you think? That one of the reason they're comfortable with you too is because you and I are rather alike too? Hmm.... dunno, not sure on that... I feel more strongly for the fact that they could see that I'm very happy being with you, and hopefully you being with me too, and that there is just this simple natural sense of comfort everyone feels in the group. Heee, I thank you for you mae me feel a very very blessed man, sitting there sipping chocolatish coffee, enjoying the company of longtime friends, and best of all, having you by me, leaning on me from time to time, sitting so close I can smell your hair, and I love holding you near, and stealing little moments to glance into your eyes and sharing a laughter, and the threatening tickling finger which could almost always produce a more excited and giggling you then I, the person, could... =P

Darling, I know in me, that this feeling I have for you, it's not because of time that I feel so strongly, it's just simply you you you. I'm drawn to you.

A Book Review

I've just finished reading Memoirs of a Geisha, and since the movie is going to be shown soon, I figured the massive amount of readers of my blog would benefit from a simple review and what to look out for in the movie.

Firstly, a confession: I've always thought that Memoirs was not fictional. This silly little mistake was gratefully corrected by this witty, quick, charming and intelligent literature correspondent of mine. However, as I think about the book, and read the acknowledgements in greater detail, I realised that years ago, whoever had wrongly given me the idea that Memoirs was not fictional had probably been misinterpreted by myself. I think he meant that the author's research and emphasis to recreate a credible authentic world was effective. Or perhaps that his portrayal of geisha had been more or less accurate. In the author's acknowledgements, he gave thanks to a real geisha and her family for providing him with valuable information on the habits and lives of being geisha. Additionally, even though my knowledge of such a lifestyle in the past of an equally faraway land may not be adequate to comment on how precise or accurate the author might have been, I think the author has done an amazing job of paying attention to scenic, emotional and physical details throughout the book. While I would be reluctant to say the book sounds as though a geisha had indeed recounted all of these, I can definitely feel the author's effort of being involved and immersed in the narration for I lose track, straight from the starting few pages, that here was an author from the West.

The story itself is beautifully narrated, with attention paid to fine details that allows me to be drawn into this mysterious world. I've always been a fan of the natural landscapes of Japan, the culture, and their appreciation for life.

On the whole, the storyline moves at a comfortable realistic pace, and the plot is enticing enough. I feel it has been a rather good read. And now for the movie...

A Balloon for a Face

Yes... the ugly fact: I have a balloon for a face.

Today... how exciting!!! We might get to go to the Botanic Gardens!!! I haven't been there in decades. Yes indeed~~~ I think it'll be romantic to stroll there with you sweetie. Yes I do think so. =)

This sine curve life

Darling, I know these few days have been hard on you... I'm sorry I added to the list of unhappiness this evening. I just felt a bit bad about the dinner thing. Sorry...

I'm gonna be here 24/7 alright... Scold me, pinch me, kick me, anything... Get it off you please sweetie... You are already carrying way too much burden. Share it with me okie... Sorry sweetheart. It's always a sine curve, this existence we all lead... Times will turn better. I don't quite know how to pray, but I really really want to for you, that things will turn out better for you. I'm gonna try. He will smooth these creases for you, He will.

the day we call Birthday

Was thinking about what my mum said to me many many years ago. As a joke, she had said something about on their birthdays, children should buy their mothers something and celebrate with them. Her logic is that your birthday is the day your mother suffered great pains to bring you into this world. Considering that my head was big, and I was in a weird position in her womb, and it was her first childbirth, she probably had hell of a time. Uh huh.... shall buy her a you tiao soon...

Yesterday was my birthday. I had wanted to blog last night when I came back, but I just couldn't find the strength to. I can't remember when was the last time I felt so exhausted. But exhausted in a very happy pleasant way. The day itself felt pretty long too, I guess it's because of work. Whew, man am I glad I got to see you very soon after work! =)

Poor you though... Didn't exactly had a good start to school huh... Plus you had to drive like mad yesterday sigh... Thank you sweetie~ Ooh, and the dinner food was good too. Too bad the chicken wings were cold already sigh heee... Their beef was good too hmm...

Your cousin.... lol~~~ oh oh oh, oh oh oh , love is in the air, old Tom~~~ Yes indeed Love is in the air~~~ Hehehe~~~ I think you're right in helping her out yesterday la. It's their reposnsibility from here on how the relationship goes. And I feel they should have worked something out long ago already, and you provided the catalyst. So, don't worry about anything yeah? =)

ahem... I feel abit paiseh saying this, but I think I'll feel even more paiseh if I had to tell you this face to face, but yesterday night, while your cousin was being all gibberish in your backseat at the car park of her flat, there were many times I felt a rush, and passion, and love and attention for you, and to you. There were many times when a nice song would play, I would look at you, and you were looking at me, and though I don't quite know whether you were thinking anything, I was. Hehe~~ I felt very very close to you. Wanted to hug you so many so many times. Ahem, ok that's all... off to shower and come hunt you down~~~ Laa laa laa laa~~~

the 100th Post

Yes yes, ladies and gentlemen, I've finally gotten to the 100th post. I would like to thank my Uni lecturers, at least some of them, for educating me; my parents for manufacturing these pale hands and mind with which I use to write in my spare time; a particular adorable soft-toy-amassing missty for providing shelter, laughters, tears, sentimental moments and inspiration. Lastly, to myself and Cancan for just being there.

Today, 8th January 2006, has been a lovely eventful day. Church sermon touched on a topic I've been preoccupied with, lunch was massive prepared by inexperienced chicken rice hawker who couldn't quite cut the chicken up cleanly & chatty drink seller who looked like he had too much beer. Boardgame shopping spiralled into a kiddy expedition of near purchase of a video game console consisiting of nostalgic games. Hot tea and sandwiches and cakes in the comfort of a cosy Tampines home, sheltered from the whole-day pouring rain. Uno death matches are always enjoyable with you, whether I win or lose. Horrors... am I becoming a parasite? I suddenly had this quirky feeling that I love love love being around you. Hooked on you... =P

Tomorrow, which also happens to be a special important day, is the first day of school for you. Don't look so glum yeah? I know that you know that you'll be fine, and you're just getting use to the timetable without me being so much around you. Well, at least we'll both remember that time. I love it. I can't quite justly describe the feeling but each time I'm with you, the company we have of each other is superb, quirky, and very ocean's 11 cool. Very very nice and comfy. I don't just mean the pleasant times, I mean all of it.

Darling, I'm a fortunate man indeed for I hold in my hands your warm hands, I have your affection and concern, and I remember all your smiles, tears and penguin little gestures. Love you.


Yours Faithfully
Towel

A Lovely Day A Lovely Walk

!!!! =) Thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love the watch!!!! The face is just the right shape and size! The strap is what I like, very very nice~~~ perfect~~~ These two days I was thinking about asking my dad to get me a watch coz I felt that I should perhaps get one, and you, my darling, in your usual spot-on and thoughtful ways, got me that. Not just a watch but one which I absolutely adore. Hehe~~ Thank you!

Today, has been rather cheerful and romantic, yes even though we had a big light-bulb... lol~ The esplanade shall always be the first and last place for us. So many of our lumbering footprints there - dinner at Al Dente, strolls at the park, matinee plays, shopping, gazing at the long stretch of skies, ships, seas, and skyscrapers. I know things have been pretty rough for you these days, but remember the perfect white cloud we saw among the grey ones alright. I think you said something very right and very healthy today: that you feel its alot better to brood and think about the unhappy situation than run away from it, such as hiding in your blanket and facing the wall, lol~~ We, which includes u and me and Rhos and Fraz and Tummy Pooh, will go throught it, all of it, together.

p.s.: I love looking at beds and fridges with you. I think it's romantic hee

Darling , I know you mean well for me... I know you try to make a very big conscious effort to "hold my hand" and try to cushion things and make it merry for me when I have to go do things like "the first day at work" etc. But you really shouldn't tire yourself out doing that... I don't want it to tire you out. If it wears you out, you should tell me about it, and don't... It will result in burnout you know... Dun want that happening to ya sweetie...

I wish I could smile and say something nice, I really wish I could... but its alittle difficult... Some really hurting comments tonight. I guess it hurts because somewhere in me I know you aren't being spiky, you were just being truthful about about irked you. Thank you, really, for telling me... I love you sweetheart.

My Name My Surname

Tomorrow will be the 5th of Jan 2006. My first day of work in school. Not very worried for I know I'll be fine, how bad can a mere few hours be? Just hope I won't make some mistakes that will take alot of effort to undo, nor put any students down.

Harold said something that kinda struck an old wound inside. He said it was much too easy to kill off a student's mind and interest with mere words. Therefore, we should always try to make a conscious effort not to demean students.

There come times when we doubt our self worth or our capability. "Good results" should mean the student being able to reach his/her greatest possible potential. Success is relative I suppose.

No... I don't suppose I'll ever be able to know if I can be a good teacher. I can only try. Time shall tell I guess.

Lol~~~ funny thought just zoomed by... A teacher, come to think of it, is very much like a celebrity isn't it? He "performs" for so many pairs of eyes, watching him intently, studying him, analysing him, knowing him. His success is very much dependent on his fans. They both need to make clear distinctions of their private and public lives. They are potential role models. They are under constant stress.

It's sometimes ludicrous when I see how vulnerable a mind can be, even to simple words that hurt. A Dust Castle.

Abrupt.

Woke up in the middle of the night.

Darling, treasure these few days of your last holiday~ They are precious. I don't quite know what I wanted to say but urmm... try to validate it? Lol~~~ No more lumbering from LT12 to AS5 hehe~~ And the most fortunate thing is, amidst all that mad lumbering, I found you. Even when we were just friends, you captivate me.

Memories of our time spent running around together doing stuff is warm and fuzzy. I love it. I love you. Off to the prep course soon. Don't quite know what to prepare myself with. Treated myself to a 6-sec movie. Best I've ever seen. Gorgeous. See ya soon sweetie! *MMMMUUUUAAACKK*

First Day of the New Year

Time: 8:52PM.

Yesterday, it was 31st December 2005. And I was privileged enough to spend it with you and your family, joking, laughing and chatting over good home-cooked food. Everything becomes this warm, wonderful colorful whirl of hues when I'm with you.

I'm glad I close the year with you. Like what you've said, there are many things and ways I sure hope I can discard with the 2005's wrapup. This festive period is really really the best I've ever had in these 24 years. I've never tasted anything this sweet and blissful. "It's the company la, the company," as someone might say. Yes indeed, for without you, I truly think I would still have been lost and broken and remained that. While I typed that, I had this sudden image of myself being this lustreless broken piece of seashell which nobody thought much of, and buried in the thick thick sands. But you picked me up, dusted me, cleansed me, and lovingly set me up to a spot always close to you. Thank you, you silly little girl, who treasures this piece of seashell that isn't something outstanding nor fantastic and very much ordinary. I love to belong to you forevermore.

I just came back from dinner with your family again at 85. Heh heh.... your family has confirmed my longstanding suspicion: that you are infinitely cuter than you care to admit. And in a very very heartwarming way, mind you... Oh yeah, about something we were talking about this afternoon, I realised I never quite made myself clear to you about how I feel. I enjoy clubbing and the whole feel and the setting very much, guess it's just like how you feel turned off by it when the crowds get ridiculously thick and hardly and space nor fun is present anymore lol~~

I'm sorry if who I am, or what I can give to you is standing in your way of something more beautiful and preferable... You do do do deserve better than a piece of carbonate compound. But I could never ever bear to tear myself away from you. Suddenly, I feel so scared that a lifetime with you is still never gonna be enough.

May this new year, and all the others to follow be smooth and blessed for you darling. =)