One Fine Day

Recently, I have discovered that someone sweet and close to me is.... psychic. Or, should I say future-influential. The two of us have had the worst chance meetings of people we weren't particularly delighted in seeing.. yesterday. All in a day. Haha... Kinda prods you to wonder about the relationship between predestination and randomness. Ok.... lost the thought..... Something more intellectual was supposed to come on but I lost it, so.... in hollywood style, well... ever wondered if all things and events, people that you meet were decided way before they happened? Had she, through some mysterious higher powers, seen into the future? In other words, is she Neo of the Matrix? Is she... the Chosen One to make things different? Or is she simply the old woman of the Oracle? Are things merely random occurences that conformed to neither reason nor logic? Which precedes which? In other words, if she had wished for chocolate fudge ice-cream and if it did present itself, would that have been due to her wish or was it already scheduled to happen?Random no-explanation chain of events, or fate or realtime cause and effect? One of the most irritating problems this is, for we most likely will never get an answer to. Uncanny and Mysteriously Mystical... Imagine if she had that kinda power in her words. To make things happen by simply verbalising them. All that is seductive and empowering in this world could be mine, I mean ours. That intense sense of ecstatic fulfillment, of alluring energy. Oh, imagine being able to grasp in your hands all that sinful wonderful things which call out coyly to you, passionately rousing everything innate to our greedy human desires. Oh, all that amount of chocolates we could wish for and get... yes~~~ yes~~~ What?? You weren't expecting me to say fame, Brad Pitt, wealth and all that rubbish, were you? No, no, no, there are ways you could try to attain those and I believe it's kinda called WORK!, except of course Brad *ahem*. If not... you burn in Hell....... And no, I don't think Hell will be pleasant, they do not have chocolates there, so be afraid, oh be very afraid. I wonder if she could then lift the Ancient Curse upon me? That terrible, horrible curse spewed upon me long long ago by one whom I adore as a friend, a friend... He was from City Harvest. Warning to All: Try your pretty best never to offend people from City Harvest. I was about to say City Harvest Church but then.... well..... I'm not quite sure if "church" is urrmm appropriate. But as promised to myself, I shall be a happy Singaporean- divided yet harmoniously happy in our differences. Besides, two guys just went to court and were fined for urmm "undesirable" online comments. Hmm, wonder why the newcasters and police never referred to the two guys' comments as being WrOnG, but just undesirable and racist... Okay... I shall not, I shall not, I shall not... do a parapara sakura on mine fields. I had wanted to say "do a macarena on mine fields" as there's alliteration involved, but I felt it just couldn't quite produce the same effect because of the tiny bothersome fact that macarena does not quite require leg movements....

Looking back at my past entries, I realised they were never really happy ones. Is it true that melancholy breeds wittier words? I... want it to be different. For once in my life, I wish that words could work beautifully for me in a different way. I want to pen happy days and happy thoughts I now possess and hold dear. We have had to go through alot of unhappy and troubling events and people before we could come together, and I'll never forget that. I've never mentioned real life character names before because I didn't want to. Never any names. At all. But now, I want to. I get to start on a new slate, I hope.

S.Y. , filthy as I am(which I really do think of myself), you have given me chances, time and grace. It's a great gift, you know? I want to restart many things, if not all, again. Refreshed. Honest. I don't know if you knew what you meant when you said those words to me, but I realised you were right that I didn't seem to dare to trust even those dear to me. But now I know I have you to trust in, and to entrust completely. I want to give you that too. Can't say much, nor do much for you, but I'll want to be there when you need me. Happily. Grumpily. Sadly. Hungrily. Lonely. Sparkly. Busy. Hysterically. All, and all of those- even at 5am. ~I Love You~ May there be many happy things to come. =)