First Day of the New Year

Time: 8:52PM.

Yesterday, it was 31st December 2005. And I was privileged enough to spend it with you and your family, joking, laughing and chatting over good home-cooked food. Everything becomes this warm, wonderful colorful whirl of hues when I'm with you.

I'm glad I close the year with you. Like what you've said, there are many things and ways I sure hope I can discard with the 2005's wrapup. This festive period is really really the best I've ever had in these 24 years. I've never tasted anything this sweet and blissful. "It's the company la, the company," as someone might say. Yes indeed, for without you, I truly think I would still have been lost and broken and remained that. While I typed that, I had this sudden image of myself being this lustreless broken piece of seashell which nobody thought much of, and buried in the thick thick sands. But you picked me up, dusted me, cleansed me, and lovingly set me up to a spot always close to you. Thank you, you silly little girl, who treasures this piece of seashell that isn't something outstanding nor fantastic and very much ordinary. I love to belong to you forevermore.

I just came back from dinner with your family again at 85. Heh heh.... your family has confirmed my longstanding suspicion: that you are infinitely cuter than you care to admit. And in a very very heartwarming way, mind you... Oh yeah, about something we were talking about this afternoon, I realised I never quite made myself clear to you about how I feel. I enjoy clubbing and the whole feel and the setting very much, guess it's just like how you feel turned off by it when the crowds get ridiculously thick and hardly and space nor fun is present anymore lol~~

I'm sorry if who I am, or what I can give to you is standing in your way of something more beautiful and preferable... You do do do deserve better than a piece of carbonate compound. But I could never ever bear to tear myself away from you. Suddenly, I feel so scared that a lifetime with you is still never gonna be enough.

May this new year, and all the others to follow be smooth and blessed for you darling. =)