Help Me Set Things Right for Us

I want to tell you, tell everyone... I know and I feel I don't seem to be able to say good things, or convey what I think. Angry? Careless? Flippant? Deliberate? Dishonest? I really don't think so, but somehow words always seem to come out very very wrongly. And I really hate myself for that. This problem, I want it to go away.... I hate it, hate me.

Am I really that lousy? Incapable of giving the most important person to me happiness? When I heard you said that I was trampling on your feelings, I feel I've been a letdown, I don't want you to feel this way. It makes me all the more guilty when I see the things she does for me, and I never seem to be doing enough or the right things, or make it last long enough for her. There isn't a day I have taken her for granted, it can't happen at all simply because you have been all I think about. Of course, I can't say I've had big great changes and improvements, but do you know, you have literally given me a new life. Its something I never could find by myself.

Your cute lines, your feisty sparkly quick-to-react strong character, your hair, your emotions, your eyes, your dog, you, just you... All of these are why I adore you. Sorry to sound THAT sobbish but.... if you take you away from me, you take away the biggest part of me. And I would be terribly lost without you. I really would.

I want to be with you also because... I dunno how it sounds.. maybe stupid, maybe naive... but I want to give you happiness... A future life together, complete with all the emotional, spiritual, intellectual, and yes.. even material needs you have. I wish very very hard, and I want to try, and strive for that. I want you to choose the sofa, you to go grocery shopping, you to hug to sleep, you to put leftover cucumbers on eyes (your eyes), and cook only for you. All I am I give to you, all I have so shall I share with you. I'm not opening my heart to you, I'm baring it... willingly, gladly, happily. Thank you, for all you have done and given me, thank you for how you love me... Let me give you everything. I want you to be the one spending my money, and commenting on the clothes I wear, and the drinks I get to drink. I treasure every bit of it.

You have filled my thoughts, my words, my head, my heart, my love. You. This is gonna sound awkwardly like a have some fascination with machismo but.... urmm yes, I do want you to take charge of my life come to think of it. Be the one and only happy tyrant to me~~~

Darling, I love you very very much, and hold dear to my heart each day I awake and look forward to seeing you, and each night when I tell you goodnight...

Let me love you

For all the vows we make

For the roads we take

And the stops along the way

p.s.: even in Grandpa Smurf mode and peeking at me with your nose and lips hidden from view, the girlfriend still looks cute, sweet, adorable, beautiful and definitely very HOT~~