It Was A Good Day

Today yes, today has been a good day darling... =) And I sit here now sipping my coffee, a very very contented man. I truly enjoyed today in church. I'm not sure if it's the speaker, or the content but for a long while after we left church, it set me thinking. About alot of things. If you ask what it is, I cannot begin to describe but I do feel it. It sets me thinking, but not in an unsettling way, more comfortable actually. I'm not sure if it's right to say so but I feel that much closer to this new life I'm learning about. And yes, I do want it. For so many things and people, including you and me, yes I want to believe. It's too coincidental also that when I sat down for dinner for one, I caught 45 mins of the movie "Bedazzled" and there were lines about this person who grapples where he stands in God's designs. Well, I can't tell if its a big or small step but I know I finally feel that much clearer, or settled. There are so many things I hope I have the resolve to change. I had always thought of becoming a social worker because ahem *slight pale blush* I felt I wantedto make a difference to people who needed help. In the typical arrogance of man, I never saw I had so many flaws overdue for improvements. Yes indeed... this rather petty, selfish, frightened, lost person does not want to be so. But frankly, I don't quite know how things can be changed, or how I may go about changing them. But I do know I have dealt with some really dark and deep-rooted issues together with you. Therefore I know changes are possible. Even if lotsa time is needed or even if not much will eventually be altered, for now, I am most eager and willing to do so. In turn, I do humbly hope I have things and an interesting life you may love to share with me. And I earnestly extend my warmest welcome. =) If it isn't too measly, if you find it appealing, do share all that I may come to have and am.

While I sat across you today for lunch, I stole occasional peeks at you. I did the same at your place while playing Monopoly. =P Not a psycho or stalker okie ahem... Okay there's not quite another apt way to describe it but... I was going abit gaga thinking about you, drunk in the happy lovey homely emotions you give to me and stir within me.

I don't think I exaggerate when I say you have virtually shown me a new way of life, or in fact a new life. Even when I listen to same song it feels different because how you feel, happy or sad, matters to me and influences me. I like this connection we share, I really do very much. As I look at you, poking fun at your mother or chatting with Bubblez or playing Monolpoly with your sister, I feel you give me a very place in your heart and life. You know, I'm thankful for all you have been so willing to share with me: your family your life your love. And urmm ahem, for my sake, hehee... I do hope you feel I fit wonderfully too heee... Destiny has a funny way of unveiling... A line I heard off a song playing just now lol... and yes, I do concur. Most willingly most yieldingly.

p.s.: ever since primary school, I've not played this much board games.. Well, come to think of it, I haven't played board games since then. So yes, in case you're wondering and not very sure, I do enjoy this past-time we share! I love playing all all all of these games with you. Though I must say, I have to be more wary of your Monopoly tactics, you who tried to buy the light-blue place, well-aware of your master plan of owning that whole strip and entrap me there... oooh you.... naughty... hmmm..... =P