Trivial Thoughts

Yes, once again... the nuts did me in ...again.... Every year, every chinese New Year, I seem to eat a little too many cashew nuts. But this year, its strange... I really didn't have not much!

This Chinese New Year has been rather quiet. Not that I'm complaining. I can't stand it when relatives get too into CNY mood. There would always be loud shots, cigarette smokes, blackjack tables, mahjong tables, yucky food, stale goodies, and hardly enough seats. And that's only relatives from my mum's side. And I don't fit in. Every year, I walk around, chat a bit, eat a lot, and try my best not to budge from my seat. And wait for a good time to exeunt. This year everyone were more subdued. Hmmm, wonder if it's age....

Darling, I love the mini rooms you do up. They look very warm, very cosy, very sweet. I feel happy looking at them, and even happier when I realise you have me in your thoughts when you plan for some of the rooms. I am more than happy to be part of your life, anything in fact, come what may. Dunno if you know this but when I did up the bedroom, I had you in mind too. =)

Clam, I know how you feel. I really do. I felt the same many many years ago too. I couldn't understand how some things could not happen. Or at least why I am excluded from things I hope to have. I couldn't understand. And it's so much easier to become angry. Sometimes, actually alot of times, I do wish inside myself that you wouldn't need to feel this way any longer. It's not easy to see a friend feeling upset about the same thing for years, and one cannot offer any help at all.

Which leads me to reflect on who I have around me. This sounds very corny... yes... but it is so... Every time I think these, I feel really fortunate I have you. Like I told Clam last night, sometimes who you be with or choose to be with, it's not always dependent on a better/lousier kinda scale. I told him also that I feel, given all you are, you could easily choose to be with someone alot better than me.

Thank you for the clam chowder and the honey-lemon!!! It's really very nice! To think that the first time you cook for me would be because I'm sick lol~~~ Heee~~~ Thank you for taking the time to prep the stuff, and coming over specially to see me darling! I love it! It's very sweet of you. Ahem, and really, I hereby have to tell you this: My girlfriend is very sweet, sensitive and considerate. I also asked Rhos how I may better express this and he said he'll go think about it.
Fate has been kind to me. I love you.